Monday, October 13, 2008

and I say "hello"

October 13, 2006 was the first day of the rest of my life. I'd lived in limbo for 3 days, knowing I'd lost my babies but that they were still inside me. But on October 13 I woke up for the first time alone, having physically said goodbye. There was a new normal now.

And today, October 13th, 2008 is the first day of the rest of my life again. Today I am greeting a new soul (or souls) with open arms into my body, my heart. I begin again a hopeful woman who is blissfully, delightfully, eternally gratefully pregnant.

Pregnant.

Pregnant.

It's been so long since I could say that. But with a beta of 187 at 9dp5dt I can absolutely say that today I am pregnant! I am humbled, I am in awe and I am absolutely ready, with the help of my husband, my doctors, my friends and family, to accept this new beginning. I'm sure the fears will come, but today I feel nothing but gratitude.

It feels so good to look forward, with optimism. It feels so good to say "hello!"

35 comments:

MDZ said...

Congratulations! And the best of luck to you!!!!

Seriously? - Erin said...

OMG!!!! I am SO happy for you. That is a great beta. Congratulations.

Sarah said...

Oh my goodness! I am so, so happy for you and your husband! I have been stalking your blog, waiting for the results, and am thrilled to see them this morning!

Kelly said...

Wahoo!!!!!!!!

Maria (MKC101103) said...

CONGRATS!!!!

Lexie said...

Congratulations!!! the hubby and I have been thinking about you and praying for a positive.

I am so very happy for you... I have tears in my eyes.

Erica said...

I am so very very happy for you Amber!! YAY!!! Congrats! H&H to you for the next 9 months!!

lauroura said...

oh wow! congrats!!!!

Tiffany said...

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is FANTASTIC. Congrats, can't wait to hear the doubling #!!!!

Meghan said...

Congrats!!

Jessatsea said...

AWHHH YOU MADE ME CRY!

JJ said...

SO HAPPY to read this good news!

Harms said...

Just sitting here crying because I am so farking happy about this post. WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!

Delia said...

OMG I'm so happy for you!!! Now I'm all teary eyed...

andbabybmakesthree said...

What a momentous day! Welcome, baby/babies!! We hope your stay here is a long and healthy one!

D

Genevieve said...

I am crying by eyes out right now.
there are no words. only the happiest of happy thoughts!
I love you so much.
I do I do I do.

G said...

Grats!!!!

MrsAmandaMqn said...

Congrats!! I will praying for you and your baby(ies)! H&H 9 months!!

womb for improvement said...

Excellent news, congratulations.

EBL said...

Amber,
I've been following your story for awhile, but never commented. I'm so happy to see this post! CONGRATULATIONS!!

kirke said...

That's incredible! Congratulations! I don't know much about betas, but that sounds like a GREAT one!

Amy C said...

Congrats!!!!!!!!! I am so happy for you and thrilled that we use the same RE :-)

Lisa said...

Yay!!! I have been keeping my fingers crossed all weekend!

Whitney said...

I have been following your blog but never commented before. I am so happy for you - CONGRATULATIONS! Your writing is amazing and so real. I wish you a very uneventful pregnancy!

Kymberli said...

I am seriously crying for you. I am so happy, so overjoyed, so blissfully hopeful for you!

Echloe said...

Congratulations.

Emily said...

EEEEEKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats!! I am so freakin happy for you, I got all teared up the moment I saw that beautiful word, PREGNANT!

Thanks for bringing another IVFer hope!

Enjoy every moment... Yay, yay, yay!

Kelli said...

YAY! Very happy for you.

shawnandlarissa said...

OMG! Congrats!!!!!

~smilelari~

Lindsay said...

What a wonderful story to tell your baby(ies) some day. You deserve so much happiness! Congrats sweetie!

JackieMac said...

OMG - that is so wonderful - I am so very happy for you!!! Congrats!!

JenM said...

Congratulations!!! Great beta number - best of luck to you and your DH!

mylifechronicles said...

That is awesome!!! CONGRATS!

Thalia said...

congratulations! That's lovely news

Kate said...

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you!